Sometimes in the middle of the
night I’ll wake up and in my sleepy state I will see a shadow that isn’t
supposed to be there. My heart will race and about a jillion scenarios will fly
through my head. Thankfully my practical self will take over. Forcing my eyes
shut I’ll tell myself: when I re-open my eyes if--and only if--the shadow is
coming closer, am I allowed to start panicking. (I never said my practical self
was logical.)
And
guess what…sometimes the shadow does move.
It is then in that moment, I will reach for my glasses. (Right, did I forget to
mention I have horribly bad eye sight? Let’s just say my husband says my
glasses can help people see Neil Armstrong's footprint on the moon.)
So with my glasses now on, I can
see…Nothing. That’s right, peering
through the darkness wearing my amazingly high prescription glasses, I can see
no foreign shadows lurking in my room.
This
week I received my first ever ‘hate mail’ for my writing. It was creepy, weird,
and well, really cruel. (Now I know why Taylor Swift wrote her song: Mean.) I could
feel the beginnings of panic inching up my spine. Only after asking for wisdom did
I finally put on my ‘glasses’ and see the hateful email for what it really was:
Showing God’s glory…
DO WHAT?
(If you read the
email, you’d think I’ve gone nuts.)
But stay with me!
Paul writes in 2 Corinthians
12:9-10, “But he said to me, ‘My grace is
sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore
I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power
may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in
insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak,
then I am strong.”
I didn’t need a stranger telling me
all about my writing weaknesses. After all I live with them. I know them very
well! But for whatever reason at this moment in my life, God has chosen to use
my weaknesses to share the news about Him.
If I
never become known for my skillfully crafted writings, that’s ok. (Especially,
if it means receiving less hurtful letters from haters. Lol)
I know I can’t spell. I know I don’t use commas correctly,
and I so know I have a very limited
knowledge of what writers call ‘the craft.’ And I hate
that. I’m working to better all of that. But I also know this is what I’m
supposed to be doing.
In your
daily lives are you listening to the craziness of the world? The haters, the
imaginary lurking shadows? Sometimes it is easier to shrug and say, “Yah, that
dude is totally right. What in the world am I thinking…?”
Before you start panicking, I
encourage you to stop and put on your “glasses”—and make sure the prescription
was given to you by the Lord.
See I’m
not retiring my writing pen anytime soon, because God’s still working on me. (and you :) )
And when He’s done, I know the world will see how little of it was achieved by
me.
Are you
seeing shadows?
Put on your glasses. Keep your eyes
on Jesus, and let Him use your weaknesses to show His awesomeness!
Because when I am weak, He often makes me strong.
with love and prayers,
Megan Besing
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
Proverbs 3:5 (NIV)
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